I always wanted to ask myself, how are we borned? I asked my parents when i was young, they said i was being adopt. Picked up below a bridge. She also told me about the Santa claus and etc. i believed so, but now i don trust anything about those belief. I wouldnt trust my parents too..

But now i just wanted to hangout, she said yes, but then said no, she changes her mind like a typhoon, spins and spins, i am the rubbish inside, spinning around, Like the Singapore trip last time, she said cannot go, the next trip can go. I wait till now the HK trip, she said cannot go, the next trip than I am allowed. So i am still waiting.. I dont believe that she is lying, i also trusted them. I just wanted to hangout. Parents are our boss. Lets just obey.

This is called the kid's jail. We are trapped within 'side of that. I want to grow up. To be free. TO obtain freedom, like my parents, controls their kids. I want freedom. Sometimes i just get why people need another part of love. To find a boyfriend. But i still trust myself i dont need one. I can stay in a life without those. Cuz breakup are the last time you got to do to carry on life. Only grown ups. Hangout are also grown ups. My mom said 15 and above then i can have that buffet. I am waiting..

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